Ancient Mystics, Spirituality and a Perfect Curry

With bronze as a mirror one can correct one’s

appearance; with history as a mirror, one can

understand the rise and fall of a state; with good

men as a mirror, one can distinguish right from wrong.

-LI SHIMIN, TANG EMPEROR TAIZONG

Even with good men around me as true companions, I am surrounded by this veil of confusion, disarray and cbf (thanks Kasia :D...i hope u won’t read this :P) Yesterday i was in the most randomest moods. At times i would be laughing without a care in the world like a Dolphin; at times i would be silent as the snake before it strikes; at times i would be shouting like a crazed bear looking for something to rip into; while at others i would be like a sloth just taking everything so laid back. I now consider myself as eagle, at the top of the world, without anyone to be afraid of. Yes i may now be starting to sound quite eerie. But yes. Ive changed. I can transform into the mystics of different animals without realising.

Strange what reading different ancient holy books can do to you. I have just recently finished reading the bible, some small Vedas and a whole lot of the Bhagavad Gita. Funny how today’s scientists are merely proving the concepts and beliefs of the ancient civilisations. Ever heard of the entanglement theory....whether the answer is a “F*** of” or a “yeah but how the heck do u knoe that shit”, did you Entanglement was at the core of primeval beliefs. Bloody hell, the names are as old as history----

BRAHMAN, TAO, DHARMAKAYA....Can i add, man’s oldest spiritual quest was to perceive his own entanglement, to sense his own interconnection with all things. To be ONE with the universe, or in other words...to achieve “at-one-ment” What do Christians and Jews still strive for...atonement (DO THE MATHS MUSH...wtf man im surprised that didn’t catch on :D)

To be more specific, polarity-the positive/negative balance of the subatomic realm...if anyone one reads the Bhagavad Gita, Krishna talks about a dual world with balance....even the Kybalion (bet u never heard of it :D) talks about the binary system and the opposing forces in nature.

There are thousands of other examples such as the Heisenberg uncertainty principle underSub-atomics....The Upanishads, the sacred Vendantic scriptures was actually studied and credited by Heisenbeg and Schrődinger (ding-a-ling) both studied this text and credited it with helping them to formulate their theories. BUT whats so awesome is that there is a new cosmological model called the Superstring theory, suggesting that the universe was made up of 10 dimension, which all interacted with each other like vibrating guitar strings.....was actually in the ZOHAR, the base text of early Jewish mysticism that was once confined to the most intellectual rabbis (sexism much :D)

But all these books have given me a spiritual look at life, and at the moment they all point out that you need a woman at your side to be with you when you move through the various levels. Sure I don’t want to be like Bever who says he wants to be a Brahmachari (suck shit niggaaaaah :P) but i want to be able to experience all of life. A new start. I don’t want to do what i did before-letting my lust and must i quote Karen “Dick” manipulate my brain into synthesising feelings to a girl on the move while i was still enjoying being a trouble maker J.

Onto another subject now, i was thinking, the three other guys who i consider family...Gorilla, Bever, and Frankilin...we combine make up the perfect curry. Franklin's sexy back muscles, Gorillas hairy yet massive arms, Bever's ripped Abbs, and my pecs combined would make up a force of reckoning

Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz

P.s FARKIN hell, Bever's come out of the closet with 8 fantastic abbs, while i am eating like theres no tomorow....bloody anorexic :D amma's like u aint gonna get ure useless abbs if u keep on eating rice and curry like ure dad :(

P.s.s Franklin and I have now a meaning to life...bring out the inner Hercules to the outside.

P.s.s.s Far out, three girls all at the same time, what more could you not ask for .....

Last words before new life..i hope

Straight back into the time
A memory that can never be erased
I have this empty feeling
and i am gonna miss everything..

After all this time
I would fall asleep
and just dream about you
I crash on the floor and a part of me dies..

You broke me down
At least i never gave up on you
You can see it all right ?
Then why can't you ask me to stop this and come back to you again ?
You just sat back and watched me break
and when you will realize you were wrong
The memories will fade
and my lonely mind will forgive and forget you.
Later,
It will be my turn to see you break
and I am waiting for this time
Waiting for your turn..

I remember you walking away from my life
The way you threw away my heart
and it lost the way to home and
my broken heart is lost.

Now, As i breathe out, the past is gone
Its been long, I've been in this storm
And now i have found myself so far away from your thoughts..
But still, I miss the life and YOU.

Damn Poetry is flowing out of my bloody brain :D

Every morning, a sun shines on my face,
waking me up..
I smile and think?
Will this morning bring something new ?

Every day is the same
Life is lame.
I go out and from underneath the trees, I watch the sky.
I dream that you'd be mine.

I go backward and then I go forward again,
Just to find you
& in the evening when i return back home
your lights guide me home.

And then comes the night..
where tears stream down my face
when i feel, i am loosing something and i can't replace
the moon casts a night spell and start confusing me
And I feel like a puzzle & i can't find my missing piece
& the world is black and white
No color and light


I hope the sky falls on me, But the moonlight makes me sleep with confused thoughts.

Love Story :D hehe i was bored

Day started with a sunrise. As usual. But there was something different about that day. The sun was shining a lot more than usual and the birds were in a happy mood. Chirping with little louder voice. What was so special on that day ?

Halo was on his bed. Thinking, What is so special ?
& Delilah texts him, 'Good Morning. I love you' .
Halo replies, " I was waiting for your text, you know I like it.. When you text me first "

Delilah smiles and replied, 'I know love' .
Halo texts back, " The weather is strange today .. Its lovely "

Delilah replies back, ' Here its so hot. I wish I was with you to see this strange weather '

Halo and Delilah are in love with each other. But, The distance separates them. They are ' 1000 miles away ' : )

2 days later ..

Halo proposes Delilah. Asking her to spend life together. Forever. Happily : )

Delilah blushes. Accepts it.

" Love was in the air "

Their hearts linked.
They started building memories together. Shared dreams. Loved each other.
Every night was a struggle for them. Every night, Delilah used to text her poems she wrote for him and this made Halo sleep peacefully and happily.


Halo was the luckiest man alive on this planet .

He was going out of town for a month, And that was the time, When they fought for the first time in their life.
Reason was, A guy called Troy, Message Halo that, Delilah is his girl and they are into relationship from past 8 frigging months.
Halo was into pieces.
In a month, halo was totally into Delilah and was completely in love.

He was at the airport, Called Delilah.
Delilah cleared everything.. But he was upset because Delilah never shared it with him. Halo heard her crying for the first time. He was upset.

On the way.. Halo thought about it.
He decided to forget it and carry on and forgave Delilah.

Halo was working hard. He was kinda busy all day and tired. Delilah understood him well that time and took well care of Halo.
They were falling for each other, Harder & Harder.

Halo returns back.
He was happy. He missed his friends and family.

It was Delilah's birthday.
Halo was the first one to wish her. He felt special. Kissed her and hung up.
Halo desperately wanted to talk to Delilah. But, Delilah was kinda busy with party.
He got upset and texted Delilah something bad. Fucked up Delilah's birthday.
Later he realised, He did a wrong thing. He asked for forgiveness.
Delilah replied, ' Iloveyou '.

Things were back to normal again. Life was pretty awesome.
But, If life is so simple, then it ain't life.

Halo & Delilah's relationship were going from some ups and downs. Every relationship does.
They fought twice or more than that in a week.

Still, they never gave up. They just loved each other more after every fight. It was cute.

They were blindly in love.

Halo and Delilah, were into social networking sites. This is the place where they first met each other <3
They had many best friends and mutuals there.

Halo knew a guy called ' Cong ', who stayed in his city.
He never liked him.
How can a guy like another guy ? Rare chances .

Cong became Delilah's new best friend. Halo asked her to stay away from that guy and Delilah being sweet, Replied, ' Okay ' : )

On a sunny day, Halo received a call from Delilah.
Delilah gave him the best news.
What was it ?

` DELILAH WAS GOING TO VISIT HALO.

Halo was super excited and pretty nervous.
He never showed his excitement. Because, He thought, every time he showed up his excitement, It never happened.

Like always, Delilah and halo were on a call.
And planning their meet.
Halo asked her, Who else is Delilah meeting ?
Delilah named few good friends and included Cong too.
Halo became little insecured. He asked Delilah, Not to meet Cong. Delilah replies, ' Okay. If you say so, I am not meeting '

They were happy. Life was happy. HALO WAS THE HAPPIEST MAN ALIVE.

14.05.2010 -

One afternoon, They were on call and Halo said that, I am super excited to meet you.
They were talking .. and Delilah got a second call.
She kept Halo on hold and attended.

Halo asked, " Who was it " ?
Delilah replied, ' Cong '.

Halo became a bit furious and from past few days, Halo and Delilah were fighting alot and Halo was not getting attention. He thought, Delilah is ignoring him. She got bored of him.

Halo hung up.
Delilah called back and asked what happened ?
Halo replied, " I don't want to talk about it " .

Delilah replies, ' It won't work .. Halo. It won't. I want to be single and these fights.. it won't work '

Halo lost his world.
He lost the reason to live.

They were not talking.
Delilah asked her, ' Are we meeting ' ?

Halo being in pain replied, " No. If we do, It will be impossible for me to get over you "

Halo was totally in vain. His friends supported him. Brought his old smile and charm back.

Delilah was in Halo's city for 10 days.
They were not talking to each other from past, 14 DAYS !

Halo was living without her.. But was into her thoughts.
He wanted to text, But then something stopped him and he kept on saving all the texts in draft.

He was hating his life.
He started smoking.
But, later he realised, He promised his world, He is not smoking.. So was forced to quit it .

Delilah was back in her city.
Finally, Halo broke the silence. Texted Delilah and they were talking life good friends.. And Halo never gave up on her.
They became best friends.

One night, Delilah messaged Halo, ' if I realise, I was a fool and i want you back in my life.. Do i have a place now ' ?
Halo replied, " My heart is only for you " <3


They were back. Not in a relation. They were not interested in long distance anymore.
Delilah was going to come to his city for future studies, so they decided to get committed at that piece of time.
Without any arguments, both of them accepted.

HAPPY LIFE AGAIN ! !
But, Life ain't simple. Remember ?

Not being in any relationship, They were still fighting.
Halo was over possessive, crazy and insecured. EVERY GUY WHO IS IN LOVE IS : )

Fights again but loving each other too.

Cong and Delilah were quite close. Halo never liked him.
And Delilah was little careless.

Halo, Being over possessive, got hurt. He was not liking the closeness.. He had the fear of loosing his world again.
So, Most of the fights were because of it & Delilah being careless.


Then came a day, When Halo came to know from some sources that, Cong is spreading shit about Halo & Delilah's relationship.
He felt bad.. No one has the right to talk shit about him and his girl.

He texted Delilah about it. Major fight.

This time, Halo decided to leave Delilah.
Both were broken.

Life was sad again.
They both lost each other.

They were not ready to give up on each other. Why would they do it ? They loved each other. It was more than love.

Halo was lost.
Halo decided to get back to this friendship.

He decided, He will change his attitude towards things and will change himself for her. Just for her world. <3

He texted Delilah. They both had some sorta deal.

Halo was changed.
His life was changed for a girl.
They took a risk.
They failed to succeed. Halo never deserved her.


Delialah, Left Halo with a phrase ` You hurt me more than loving me.

And, It made Halo unstable.

It ended.


The love story which they found will last -forever- ended in 160 days.


Life ain't so simple. You have to uncomplicate the complicated things to make your life happy and liveable.
People can actually change in love. But always change for the perfect one. Take right decisions in love. One wrong decision in love can fuck up your life.
Halo changed for her. They wanted to live happy together.


Now they are friends. They left their love on destiny.
Still, Loving each other. Waiting for each other.

In relationship, Always take chances. Even if you know , It'll hurt you, Take chance. Pick up the pieces and ask your lover to fix it (:

One ALMIGHTY DILEMNA

No matter how many people you manipulate, no matter how many people you toy with and screw with their heads, no matter how many friends you can make, always remember this. Deep down, when the shit hits the fan, you’re alone. You’re always alone. It’s you against the world. No one else.

Thanx to old mate but damn...that quote is making a whole load of sense....Its funny coz thats what exactly happens in exams, work, and in life

CHANGE TOPIC :D

What would you do...no if ure reading this next part i want u to really think about it, My good old friend, yes im posting another one of life stories ( SUCK SHIT :P) but yes, so as we all knoe he loved a girl, but the girl dumped (im not sure thats the right word) him, giving the most random azzz explantion and then went of with his friend. RIGHT....so now that alleged friend wants to be on talking terms (just a bit strange) but its pretty obvious that the guy dislikes/hates my friend.

SHEEZ, talking about a dickhead (ill call him that from now one) thats gonna backstab. Right, so the hero of our tale has tried to forget her ...VALIANTLY to must i add doing everything to from making him look ugly, goin black and trying a whole new lifestyle ... to be told be a mate that she broke up wit MR dickhead and that she has now so called MIXED EMOTIONS...

Tell me what should he do, go and get her or leave the girl that played him alone?

Onto my own life now, im telling you all now, im not gonna make the same mistake if i get married. Its my grandfathers thiti(death aniversary) on the 6th of august but his actual day of death is on the 23. For My dads mother and father, both my dad and asiappa's(second older uncle) go and give their offerings to the priest at the temple for their parents (sometimes at home to). But then after that we have a family lunch all together thats vegetarian..FULL STOP

Sure this is great getting the family together, but is it fair that their is one rule for my dad and another for my mum. Farking hell, this is pissing me of real bad now. So tomoz we have to do our respects to (who i think is a bloody great man) and my uncle calls up to invite us to dinner. NOWmy own blood and bones (im starting to get ashamed of callin him my uncle atm) says its only going to be meat orientated, mums like wtf we r goin to the temple, and then he says naa the kids( Athavan, Amirthaa and I) can eat cant they....im not sure about u guys but my family is based on our values and this goes against mine. Bloody bastard. Yes it is wrong for me to say this against my own Uncle, but still after this rant im gonna go back liken him....

Over and out

P.s Hate wearing those neck braces

P.s.s My voice is still jack of shit :D

P.s.s.s I need to get unconfuseed

P.s.s.s.s Coughing up blood at night isnt a very pleasant experience

Cbf this month

Man its been so long writing on my blog

seriously, i remember when it helped me where i can put down what came straight from the heart to somewhere for future reference, but i just feel so not lazy, not that stupid word everyone in JOMo uses (wtf is it ahhhhh) PROCASTINATE lol brutha but shit just comes into me and then the music just helps it keep it going to the nucleus envelope of my heart cells, where i can hide and bring it out when im by myself....

Today was f.. no im not gonna swear, stuffed up. Man what a friends there for. To laugh when ure laughing, to cry when ure crying,

IN ESSENCE TO BE THERE FOR YOU

Ive been through the pain that i wanted to feel so i can think about that whenever i next have the dilemna of a girl asking me out (no chance wit my new hair cut XD....bloody army look apparently). But that doesnt mean ill stop my friends from falling into this trap, actually i want them to so then they can experience life and learn from the shit that goes through wit having a highschool attracti0n (i aint gonna say love :D)

The kiss (if ure that advanced)

The flirty convos

The holding hands

The idea that she might be the one

The doubts that come through about the two of u

The hugs

The goddamn "URE REALLY NICE AND EVERYTHING BUT I JUST CANT DO THIS" talk

The sudden gloomyiness

The f*** it all thoughts

The Sad music playing through the headphones

The why do i even want to see her

The she threw me out like rubbish

The i want to do something to help ......

Now this may not be the case for everyone but as far as i see it this last one is what changes ure life !!!!!

Seriously, all i did if u guys have dared read this before (jokes relax, im still gonna chop of ure....) was a a couple of skotch, but if there is one thing i will impress on people is that smoking and alcohol will ruin ure life. Smoking and me go way back...i leave that for another time

4 hours later.....

My head feels so much more freerer after that run. But damn my boxing body has now been replaced by my more athletic, more toned body (bloody sucks at times)

I mean when i was doing my weight gaining stuff i was actually looking like i was a force to reckon with, especially on sat and sun night, all the curries and wogs just looked at me in epic AWENESS :D it was MINT,

U could see my arms and my pecs when i wore my t-shirt and stuff but then...i didn’t have my abbs, when i say that asin u could only see them as two long ass mother******* but then now u can see each and every indivial abb (YES BITCH)

I like what i see, shame the bloody camera died on me before i could show the results, but my head is now so much more clearer....like hell it is, damn man i feel good. Man now that i actually knoe that i can achieve being the just the right look, feels awesome...but i feel like running again, more and MOre and MORE. Its my ecstacy which is now fuelling me, i feel light now without anything bothering me,

Man damn i like what i see tomorrow in the bathroom, i am gonna get back to my usual antics, and i wont care if anyone sees me coz if they have a problem....Just say it to my face once again yeah bloody hell, i may not take it well then but i will think about it :D. Did i tell u i feel good

So long niggahs

Watched Merlin (youtube style) good shit but when the heck is the NEW SERIES COMING OUT !!!!!

Mite get a good nite sleep tonite :D

P.s Ilove my abbs

P.s.s I love my semi-complete pecs major

P.s.s.s I Love my buffed up thighs

P.s.s.s.s Hate my head and its contents

Short and sweet....Im Back

Even though i have a lot of things to express

this is not the time nor the mood for it

but

IM BACK

officially with vengeance

cbf just doing shit half heartedly

from now on, im going to be the Arjun everyone knew in Term 1,

the Arjun that will make a decision on the beat and keep on going

thats me here...thats me then....thats me now.....thats me in the future

But its gonna be the next couple of weeks that decides whether or not the other side of me will return, i dont wont them to come back yet i want that side to live on the outside for a bit.

However its been some time since the wild side of me was unleashed, the side that doesnt distinguish between good and bad but wats rite and wrong, and it returned in fashion

Yesterday my neighbour was accosted by 6 youths (sounds like a police report) however they werent there for a simple mugging, they were there for retribution....a family insult but wat ever the matter was, group bashings are plain cowardly, simple one on one is all it takes but to make it worse......knives

now thats just insane, so thats when i came, those faggots had no idea wat him them but they ran like hell (lucky i knoe my biology, if i missed the straps by a millimetre i would have cut through his arms....but god did it feel good to have pure adreneline go through ure blood, but the my neighbour is good, same age as me, but already tied up in gangs guns and blood

funny enough the same wrist that was used to love was used to fight...any interconnections can i point out but all i have to say is that it takes just a tiny match of love to burn down a forest of a mans ambition. Until this moment, i never understood how hard it was to lose something you never had

Allahi mana ay

listining to Usure Pogudhey by A.R. Rahman from Raavanan...bloody fantastic movie(beats the hindi version easily)

Ps. I styled this after Damien's posts

Pss. The next one will be more in dept...maybe

Psss. Has put on weight yet looks as good as ever