What an illusion this world is.....

One look in ure life....ure on top of the world

Second time u look....ure at the bottom of the world

Third time U look .... ure on the rise like a phoenix

sometimes

that special one

means so much to u

that its no longer about u

its about them

i considered other girls

but NO ONE comes close

shes special

shes different

to the rest of the girls

it will be my secret

i want to knoe her

i want to love her completly

truely madly ever and ever

That was the thoughts of my man.....

Can you ever really want to be in a strange situation as him right now... bugger

The only girl hes asked out, that one girl he truly loved, wants him back (APPARENTLY) , and the guys only been back to form just recently. Okay you may think that this nothing...but here is where it gets confusing. His friend comes out of the closet and tells him that he likes someone....and that someone is his Ex. WELLLLL... he didnt say straight to his face that it was her but one piece of shit to another and them BAM, it hits you.

Yes its true, he wants her, loves her but to the point where he doesnt want to get hurt again. You see, he cant live without his friends, his friends cant live without him. End of story. Even if it means giving up that one bright spark in your life which is shining your path in life. Very tough but he has made up his decision about letting her go for his friend. I mean, he too has been hurt, very bad and he cant let him go through the same shit with out anything else that is in his power.

But the one thing which is making this whole shit effed up is that a passerby has told him that its her friends thats not sure about him---not the other way around--- telling her that she should be the one forgiving him for all hes done... i mean WTF MANG...wats he ever done. last time i saw it was him that was told that she 'THOUGHT" (emapsis on THOUGHT) she liked him but didnt after the illusion fell away....hmmmmmmm

Well on a personal note i have rekindled some fading friendships...cant believe i didnt make time for them, but i believe the truest friendships come from the heart and give each other what they want....Love ya mate

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