What a term its been-Shit (Part 1)

Seriously been jacking of at school thats what this term was...I started to put my foot down in certain subjects and it worked...yet in some it just feels a waste to be honest-God knoes wat im gonna do for VCE at this rate. My head has been overtaken by Frank Sinatra, Louis Armstrong, Joe Williams and Ella Fitzgerald....in essence by swing/jazz singers. DAMN ARE THEY GOOD. For the black Americans in the 1990’s i tip my curry hat to you. The time of swing, blues, Smooth Jazz that and Retro Jazz has now made me an avid listener....fark can’t believe i missed the boat for the concert :’( Mum caught me singing to Sinatra and was amazed that i could sing (BLOODY no im gonna call her that :D) lols amazed by how deep and wonderful Armstrongs voice is, damn hes lucky niggah :P but then the times of today with everything centred around remixes, club mixes and techno also have their own type of nuances and mystical uptaking of the body that makes u wanna dance :D

But its wonderful how events can make a change in ure heart, to the way u listen to music. Im now bent on getting black, yes u heard me BLACK-If u had noticed the point of blackness to where i was wit Franklin in front of building 53 in Dickshafts photo.....idk why maybe i mite say it now maybe i mite not...but its all fate + Heat + Sun =(in the presence of Summer)

Now over the term shit has changed....alot, idk how but it just did. Fark me. Sometimes i feel like coming to this school was the worse choice possible...at times it was the best -AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH WTF i feel like raging thinking about shit but then i dont have the energy to. I just want to leave with my learners and party hard, but then i havent been to any parties lately...the effects of jomo

Alright ima go of and sleep now

being sick, vommiting high temperature kinda gets to ure head

Beard or No beard turns to havoc with Family

Well well well, the weekend that i just had was very relaxed...to relaxed must i say but who gives now with, what is it.....16 days odd to exams.

Saturday, i had to shave my 2 week old infant beard and boi was that boon and bane at the same time. Yes, i look definatly older and more capable to get the LADIES who are slightly older than me while at the same time get those near my age or younger (major NO NO for me)...... Well what way to celebrate a 40th birthday huh. Langley Hotel, Succulent lamb chops, chocolate mouse, some other desert that had a strong rum and chocolate sauce that got me a bit woozy, De Bortolio Pinot Chardinoy (and some other beautiful wines :P), and fortunatly being the only guy in a room with 1 other pretty darn fine girl. Farrrrrrrrrrrrk man so what happened was it was my mums best friends 40th and shes loaded. Her husband is a neurosurgeon at the Royal Melbournes, always on call but bloody cashed up. These guys have the most strangest upbringings.

My mums friend, well lets just say her parents are both doctors from Lanka who were well respected in both the Tamil and Sinhalese communtity, while her husbands parents were a quiet middle class family where he had to work his arse of to get to where he is right now. Amma in the morning was like u aint going cricket which was a boon seeing as my fricken ankle kept messing with my foot not letting me walk properly, but a bane seeing as i already told the boys that i am on the bus..... MENTAL DILEMNA

But who the heck gives at the moment...so i went for a change with my electric shaver (so much easier) going with the neat and regal look of the long side burns instead of the usual cut and short look, which even got myself looking double twice in the mirror (jks jks im not bever whose always in the boys toilet checking his middle parting), put on the shirt, the G-STAR :P and propped myself in the car for a good ride to heavens border....Sleep. First thing when i woke up was to find myself being made fun of by my sister picking my nose (insolent child grrrrrrrr) and some bogan at the car door opening it wide.

Shit. i rambled much.

Cut to the chase, typically curry but untypical for my mum a stickler for time, we were late (with reason :D) and we were given a rockstar entrance by ammas friends who cracked the shits at us. I was left with the oldies at the start but i shall come to that later.....

30 minutes later i was whisked away by this angel who was MY FRICKEN AGE... EYAH BABY, well the next hour or so i became once again the punching bag for my adopted brothers and sisters (mums friends children) who for some reason thought that it would be a show to their new found 'friend' ... bloody hell. Thankfully for me the clowns came in the form of Agent Smith and Agent Smith from CBI who wisked the under 15's leaving me on the floor once again. The next couple of hours, full of eating, and must i say a bit of drinking (water of course) was so AWESOME, gaaaaaaah why didnt i meet her before lols jks jks just kidding she is hot though was the best this whole term.

But ahhhhh alas i shall come to my next point before my headache gets the better of me... THe oldies who i were with fell in love with me as i with them, so good having the warmth and love of grandparents again near you. However i got the best advise about my life from them. I felt myself again, not that idiotic one at school nowadays but the one who still feels and acts like a little kid. But it seems like my mum is not the only side with powerful and influential characters. My dads great Uncle......SS RATNAM and my oldest uncle's godfather, google the guy, and then see if our noses are alike (apparently his was more pointier than mine)

Well signing of with a whole lot of thoughts that arent related to bio or methods but are alot on what i got from the party

P.s Still cant believe i got asked if i wanted wine and got away with it

P.s.s MUAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAHHAHA SUCK ON THAT

P.s.s.s My head hurts

Man.Robot.God, and family

Right WAT UP

thing is this weekend would probably have been the best over a long time....shit bro cricket, sleep, temple-play the mrithangum-unwillingly picked up a chick for a mate, go of to an awesome party (whens the next one i swear), skip tuition in the morning, have a good old discussion about who was tanker with an old friend, and then have a good old curry birthday party.... :D

what made this party even more special i reckon was the fact that how families come together..... so what happened was that half of the crowd was munching away on there rice and curry when the rest of the people had to stand and wait...THE FOOD HAD RUN OUT.... see this a nightmare come true for currys, but must i say the love between that family sheezs. Instantly with just the word thambi (smaller brother) the youngest one jumped into the car...i went with him...easily bet couple of racers and got the food, raced back in less than 10 minutes. Must i say i was pissing myself with a) laughter and b) self preservation

CHANGE TOPIC

Just go with an open mind just to enjoy the combination of Shankar, Rahman, Rajnikant and aishwarya rai. Rajni defies all odds in this movie and people screaming and whistling for him from the opening song. Of course there is no bang opening like the usual rajni movies, but its rajni, rajni, rajni all the way! Watch out, I don’t want to spoil the fun!

I was amazed at the way certain pockets of the story were handled and the second half is too good. Rajni as robot has some negative shades, and it’s a cake walk for him. I could see glimpses of his characters of classics like Nettrikan, Moondru Mugam (Alex pandiyan) and Nenaithale innikum, all rolled up into one! Enthiran does steal your heart, especially in the emotional last frame!

His makeup and hair style do make him look quite younger and Aishwarya looks stunning in her costumes of Manish Malhotra. She completely steals the frames in all the songs.. The songs are shot in some picturesque beaches and the song “Kilimanjaro” shot in Machu Pichu is amazing! Special effects, in the second half are creative and shankar’s brilliance flashes.

Some points I would like to mention about the movie are:

1. This is a complete masala movie with comedy, song, dance, romance, fight, sentiment.
2. The story’s base is Science Fiction – but it is a science fiction masala.
3. That means, do not expect a complete Sci-Fi genre movie like Terminator. But expect a movie like Avatar. (Indian version of Avatar).
4. It has all the ingredients to make it attractive to children, youngsters, family members, ladies and Rajini’s mass audience.
5. The last 45 – 50 minutes will be a celebration for Rajini fans.
6. The animations are never before seen in Indian cinema and takes Indian cinema to next level in terms of visual effects and animations
7. The stunt sequences are again, the best in Indian cinema.
8. He was sure that the movie will be liked by Hindi audience too.
9. He was absolutely sure that Rajini’s performance as the villain will win him a National Award.
10. He was also sure that A.R. Rahman will win next year’s National Award for BGM.
11. He said that the climax Symphony based BGM by Rahman is worth even Grammy awards.
12. The one point that the Hindi audience may not like is comedy that is specific to south India. He said, they may cut there scenes in Hindi.
13. The International audience who like song and dance will enjoy the movie. But, the film will not impress international audience in general as this will be a typical Indian masala movie.
14. The movie will definitely break all records for sure.

right so theres a little sum up of my thoughts of the movie.......but its the themes that are weaved through the film that is mind boggling. What gets me thinking is that robots are gonna be huge in the coming years and decades. THey have already taken over sweeping, vaccuming and now security....its just a matter of time before they start becoming like us. The issue im trying to pull across is what happens if robots are used against us? think about it..... and then post

Ceya aligators

P.s Exams and parents just dont go well with each other do they....

One of a kind....

Been all over the world

Done a little bit of everything

Little bit of everywhere

With a little bit of everyone

All the girls I've been with

Things I've seen it takes much to impress

But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

I can be in love

But I just don't know

Baby one thing is for certain

Whatever you do it's working

All the girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do

There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl

You don't give a damn about your look

Talking about I can't do it for you

But you can do it for yourself

Even though that ain't so

Baby cause my dough don't know how to end

But that independent thing I'm with it

All we do is win baby

I could be in love

But I just don't know

Baby one thing is for certain

Whatever you do it's working

All the girls don't matter

In your presence can't do what you do

There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Baby you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

Timing girl

Only one in the world

Just one of a kind

She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be

A future baby

Baby you're one of a kind

That means that you're the only one for me

Only one for me

Baby (girl) you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than this

Girl you're so one in a million

You are

Baby you're the best I ever had

Best I ever had

And I'm certain that

There ain't nothing better

No there ain't nothing better than you

Last day of Hols-Fail blog

Right so its the last day..Sunday and im buggered

Right now everything seems like its another body away, asin im not experiencing anything

The boys came over......OH YEAH soo much fun got up to soo much shit, i must say the best and dangerous time of my life :P but then saturday and the GF came around and i was like fml all those wogs, afgans and other randoms are gonna cheer for something finally......

Ahhh i dont knoe wat to say right now...ive been getting spells of dizzyness (is this good or bad???)

More or less like this post........................................this holidays has been a waste

Hopefully ive recharged enof for the exams------god thinking about it is making me sick already

Back to the pavilion boys

P.s Someone slap me awake in class :P

639 and a map

You maybe wondering why the heck i have the number 639 as my title.

Maybe if u type up the word Muscles u may find a hit.......

Im not gonna go on about how my body is developing..i have a long way to go till i can say i have got a basic body. But what do u think is the strongest muscle in ure body????

a) The uterus (shut up and look down)

b) Gluteous Maximus

c) The Jaw

any ideas....well in fact all these three are correct

Dont look shocked-i aint pulling ure legs

so over this holidays i have been only excersising B and C as much as u lot would like to think A

i havent got the energy to do any reps...i dont have the energy to play outside...i dont have the energy to be my self

thing is i dont knoe myself anymore....im becoming more like the person i hated to be in primary school, and mum knoes that too, nowadays she tells me of for acting to old....wtf am i meant to say, while everyone gets to tell the whole world they have a gf, im stuck baaaaaaaaaaaah stuff this shit, i dont knoe random frenzy........

The map is not the territory

The map is not the territory is just another way to point to the same thing. The map is the concept of what we have in the mind about something. It’s a belief, an image or a thought-pattern. We use this map in the same way as we use a city-map to find a location. If the map is correct, we will find our location. If it is slightly incorrect, we have to correct it by new knowledge, optimize it. If it is completely incorrect or we move to another city, we have to replace the map altogether. What is happening is that we changed the map. And this is happening all the time.

Another map is the self-image or we may call it the ego. It is everything we saved about ourselves. It is the map of ourselves and we act from it. We want to improve our self-image and we use our intellectual abilities to do so: we get our desires and we set goals and work towards them. The map called the ego is a very useful map that we constantly create ourselves. But here is the important thing: it is still a map.

It’s nice to have a map, as long as you know it’s a map

Which means:

1. The map can change : which means our self-concept (the ego, who we think we are) can change and this is the basis of personal development. This changing map includes our thoughts, beliefs and actions: the whole world-view and the self-image.

2. The map is not the territory : I am not the ego, my self-image. You are not your self-image, or in other words: You and I are not who we think we are; think in the literally sense of the word: thoughts (and all other concepts) are the map, not the territory.

The important step to Spiritual Awakening is dropping the map and experiencing what is without the map.

But, (for me at least) this means not to remove the map for all time. I need the map to function in the world and to relate to everything. So I create maps and use maps in a very intense way, in the best way possible. But there is one difference: I dis-identified the map from the territory. So I know that my self-image is my self-image but not the self.

Ken Wilber called the process "Transcend and include". Or as Genpo Roshi put it: the reason we are able to transcent the ego but still use it as a human being is that we know the Being side of the Human Being as well as the Human Side: check my posting about Personal Power vs. The Power of Now for more.

This is a Zen story I found on the website Pointing To The Moon :

"When Zen Master Nan-chuan saw his student Ma-tsu diligently practicing meditation hour after hour, he sensed a certain effort and ambition in the young monk’s demeanor, so he sneaked up behind him and asked, "What are you doing?" "I’m trying to become a Buddha," Ma-tsu replied proudly. Nan-chuan then picked up a stone and began rubbing it against a spare tile from the monastery floor. Hearing the sound, Ma-tsu asked, "What are you doing?" Said Nan-chuan: "I’m trying to make a mirror." Ma-tsu had an awakening.

And it goes on:

Everything is just as it is! Ma-tsu is Ma-tsu, the tile is the tile, and you are you, just as you are. There’s no Buddha apart from this fundamental truth, and any attempt to achieve some special state of mind just leads you away from who and what you already are. In the direct approach to truth …, the direct recognition of your true nature is available in every instant, on or off the cushion, whether you meditate or not. You merely need to "take the backward step that turns your light inward to illuminate the Self," as Dogen Zenji said." – Stephan Bodian

Time to shine i reckon

P.s Wants to do something....except not sure wat to do

Wow so long

Its been ages hasnt it.

I mean really bloody bored seeing as i cnt do anything thanks to my thumb

causing my... well developing body to be incomplete and rapidly spiraling into fatness

cant see any of those chiseled abbs now :D

but if u think about it, yoga could do a whole lot of stuff for u .... seriously-its all about the balance

the balance what all the teachers were saying at the start of the year, but wit now poor Webs trying to inhance. SO there way of saying is balance has been said ages ago---- Yin Yang.

Yin-Yang represents the ancient Chinese understanding of how things work. The outer circle represents "everything", while the black and white shapes within the circle represent the interaction of two energies, called "yin" (black) and "yang" (white), which cause everything to happen. They are not completely black or white, just as things in life are not completely black or white, and they cannot exist without each other.

While "yin" would be dark, passive, downward, cold, contracting, and weak, "yang" would be bright, active, upward, hot, expanding, and strong. The shape of the yin and yang sections of the symbol, actually gives you a sense of the continual movement of these two energies, yin to yang and yang to yin, causing everything to happen: just as things expand and contract, and temperature changes from hot to cold.

Its funny isnt it, that its only now have i realised that u sometimes need that other person to be ure counterpart. I mean ever upto this yr i have never needed someone so badly, i mean yr 7 and 8 were like shit but this yr has given me some new shit to digest ......... but just remember, what goes around, comes around

but as much as i want to rant, im keepin it in, there are people out there who just dont understand the pain people go through when they do something. heres an example that ive been through, a girl meets a random guy (MUHAHHAHHA) that she has no idea and suddenly finds spark occuring.... thing is though he has someone that likes him. Now wat shall he do, go wit the chick that he doesnt knoe, or the the girl that he knoes but doesnt like??????? Now, u woulds probs going wtf but, i feel for the person who he knoes already as she would have to put up wit loosing someone she lves for some bloody random that the guy has no idea of. I mean FAAR OUT.hmmmmmm enof of this shit

soooo im stuffed, im starting to represent a graph now, i dont knoe it is a parabola or a linear maybe even a sin graph, but this year i have been declining....shit loads. First started of with Science, then English, then my relationships wit certain staff and now with methods. BS i swear, i feel like i want to do something in life, go to the gym, get my drivers license, get the love booming again, but i swear ..... im soon gonna hit the bottom if it wasnt for certain people.

F*** of mate :D

listening to the all time oldie black and white tamil songs

P.s Cant believe how strong some people are, even when there lives have been changed, they still can manage to laugh